Haha, haven't blogged for a long long time...so sue me -.-. Haha, the feeling's over, just a momentary feeling of admiration i guess. It's all over now anyway. Majorly screwed up promos, don't know if I can even promote, at first I felt it was kind of okay, it might even have been for the best. But now it seems a scary notion, I want to promote with my friends. Ah well, no use hoping I guess, I'll just have to do my best to appeal. But I do so want to promote...): Hmmm my current emotional condition? Apart from being seriously stressed because prom still needs loads more sponsors, it's this girl ( -.- what other reason could there be?) Hmmm...she agreed to go out with me, but i don't know it's if she is actually interested or is it out of pity? I don't know ): it feels like I've been bugging her since April, because I'm always the one to initiate converstations and stuff, but it's so irritating when someone is as passive as her. I just don't get it with Singaporean girls, must they always keep mum no matter what? Must they leave everything to the guy? Can't they take SOME initiative. I mean...I get it when they say too much initiative turns people off, but none at all? Ridiculous! I really feel it is out of pity or probably because she's given in that she's agreed to go out. I hate such situations. I would rather just pretend nothing happened at all than to be in something so one-sided. I hate forcing people. I hate being led on a leash and most of all I hate having my feelings played with, which to some extent is happening right now. Why can't she just make it clear cut? Yes? No? More time? My side? Well I am interested but don't exactly like her. The infuriating thing is, it is like history repeating itself over and over again. Either she goes away or I get played. Nothing ever works out. Well some good stuff has come out of it, I used to feel that all I needed was that one person close to me to cure my loneliness. But because of that lonely feeling I realise how many friends I have by my side, and I hold them dear for that reason, (in no order of importance(: ) zhi ming, jun yu, daphne, gui rong, tian cheng, shuonan, yenni, bobby, chris, hong yi and all the others! You know who you are (: and kudos to those for guessing who's not in my list (; Anyway, I've taken a vow, for my academics and personal growth, not to get involved in such stuff again, as in not go around taking the complete initiative. It's too draining. I may initiate, but for the most part I'll just reciprocate. Blame me for being too naive and expecting certain reactions from the other party but f#%* you. I'm not psychic you know, how am I supposed to understand your "subtle" hints if you give me too few or none at all? I just wanna scream the F word in your face you know that? For all the guessing you made me do and all the pain you caused me. I will steel my heart...I already have, but all is not lost, I just need hope, a sms, a card, wadeva. I can go on and on about how I feel but I'll just be repeating myself again.
Hmmm I'm listening to Jay Chou now, guess the song -.- It's really such a beautiful song. Suspenseful yet elegant. Speaking of which, I'm really enjoying being a dance i/c. Apart from all the parts about keeping tradition. What I really found gratifying on MAF night was to look behind me and see the whole crowd dancing along and having fun, being happy in general. It makes me happy to see them enjoying themselves. Haha and I discovered things about my body I never knew before learning to dance, unlocked certain abilities you would say. It's made dancing a whole lot more enjoyable and appreciating dance almost gives me as much satisfaction as beautiful music. The job rocks! Totally! It also gives me a chance to listen to others comments, which I really appreciate. You can never get enough constructive comments about yourself.
Going to end soon you bored reader (: Haha, anyway I think MAF was brilliant, a uber fantastico piece of art, absolutely stunning. Watching the people's faces light up during grand light-up (Ha see i made a pun! I know...lame -.-) made all the hard work and effort worthwhile even if it was only for 2 hours. Okay... I'll stop here for today! Dinner time! Smells good yummydoo!
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Sir Himbo
I'm younger than I look T.T
I like cheesecake
I get sad easily :(
DReams
3As and 1B for promos
Stronger, fitter, faster
Learn how to glide
Be more open-minded (Though I'm not sure how)
